我可不可以拿起那把刀狠狠地刮下去,我真有那股冲动.
Can I pick up the knife and scrape down mercilessly, I really have that kind of impulse.

如果伤口的痛能盖过一切，我宁愿那样做。
If the wound can be overshadowed by all the pain, I would rather do.

所有的期盼都不在了，满意了吗?
All expectations are not in, and satisfied?

结论：恭喜我吧，本人正式的崩溃了！
Conclusion : Congratulations to me, I formal collapse!